Crazy - Gnarls Barkley
My Favourite Superman Returns Tshirt • dark blue with a doppled textured shield in red & yellow • from 2006 • #superman #tshirt #blue #red #yellow #doppled #textured #print #vintage #clothing #manofsteel #supermanreturns #S #2006 #06 #superhero #closeup #TodayImWearing #MyFavouriteFrontCoverTshirt #MyFavourite #me #summer #evening #2ndAugust #2013 #xProII #lux #st #thest
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What Goes Around.../...Comes Back Around
What Goes Around…/…Comes Back Around
| Justin Timberlake
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- Rock Steady
- All Saints
- Studio 1
- Released in 2006, Rock Steady was the first song by the foursome in 5 years.
- The song got a bit of controversy after Cheryl Tweedy (Girls Aloud) said that it sounded like a Girls Aloud record.
“I don’t want to think,
I don’t want to feel nothing.
I just want to be numb”
– Pet Shop Boys, “Numb”
While my medications have been keeping me numb most of the time…I’m finding myself feeling the deep pains I used to feel many months ago. I’ve fought these demons before…this time is different it seems. Those urges I feel on a daily basis are starting to become stronger. I try to ignore them, but they still come to the surface late at night.
Right now, I don’t know where to turn for help. I know I have friends who would be willing to listen. Friends who care and that I trust. But I also know that they have issues going on in their own lives at the moment and I don’t want to add to them. I wish these demons would just leave me alone!! Why can’t I have a moments peace from all the voices in my head??
Tonight, I’m hanging on by a thread that is slowly fraying. I feel so alone right now. Those that I would talk to are too busy to take notice that something is wrong. They are so focused on their own lives that they either don’t care to notice or don’t see what is going on. I’m finding myself unhappy and I don’t know why. I should feel blessed with all God has given me, and yet I feel as though there should be more. I’m thankful for all that I have been blessed with, and yet my heart craves for more.
I’m craving the ending to the loneliness that is going through my heart at the moment. I know I can surround myself with friends, but I know that I would just be putting up a front and the smile. My smile wouldn’t reach my eyes right now. I’m tired of waiting for God to bring me that special someone. I want to be able to live and share my life with them while I am still young enough to live it. I don’t know…maybe I’ve screwed up all of my chances and there is nothing left.
I’m tired of feeling all this pain in my life. I don’t want to be numb from all the happiness that I know I could be feeling, but I want to be numb from the pain. I wish there was an escape for me. I don’t necessarily need “me” time…but I need to find a way of getting away from all this and finding my way back to the way I was before.
I have a song which explains so much about what I am feeling. ”Numb” by the Pet Shop Boys. I find that I am better able to express myself through music. I wish I could live my life speaking on through music…but life isn’t a musical. But there are songs which can say so much that I could never say. They have a way of bringing to light what I am feeling and are better at describing it and putting it into words than I could ever do.
So here is my song for the evening…maybe this will help to shed some light onto what is going on through my brain. If I could find a way of posting the video on here, I would. But for now…here are the lyrics.
You're All I Have
You’re All I Have | Snow Patrol
"it’s so clear now, that…"
Casino Royale • now watching • the penultimate night! • movies have made the endless overnight stays in hospital fly by • #youknowmyname #bond #jamesbond #007 #danielcraig #casinoroyale #titlecard #movie #film #title #2006 #06 #noughties #midnoughties #ianfleming #spy #british #greatbritain #unitedkingdom #red #black #nowwatching #19thOctober #2012 #kelvin #lux #st #thest • 2006 memories • ♥😍👬 (at The Royal Marsden)