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Optimism is invaluable for the meaningful life. With a firm belief in a positive future you can throw yourself into the service of that which is larger than you are.
Learned OptimismMartin Seligman, father of positive psychology, on happiness, depression, and the meaningful life.

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‘People think that if you’re depressed, you’re depressed about something., he explains to me. ‘More often than not, I’m not. I just feel… Terrible. And it’s not about record sales or media or family. That’s stuff I can pin it on. The real root of it all is, actually, I suffer with an illness that’s called depression.’
Robbie Williams in Chris Heaths ‘Feel’ (via hellyeahrobbiewilliams)

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“I don’t want to think,

I don’t want to feel nothing.  

I just want to be numb”

– Pet Shop Boys, “Numb”

While my medications have been keeping me numb most of the time…I’m finding myself feeling the deep pains I used to feel many months ago.  I’ve fought these demons before…this time is different it seems.  Those urges I feel on a daily basis are starting to become stronger.  I try to ignore them, but they still come to the surface late at night.

Right now, I don’t know where to turn for help.  I know I have friends who would be willing to listen.  Friends who care and that I trust.  But I also know that they have issues going on in their own lives at the moment and I don’t want to add to them.  I wish these demons would just leave me alone!!  Why can’t I have a moments peace from all the voices in my head??

Tonight, I’m hanging on by a thread that is slowly fraying.  I feel so alone right now.  Those that I would talk to are too busy to take notice that something is wrong.  They are so focused on their own lives that they either don’t care to notice or don’t see what is going on.  I’m finding myself unhappy and I don’t know why.  I should feel blessed with all God has given me, and yet I feel as though there should be more.  I’m thankful for all that I have been blessed with, and yet my heart craves for more.

I’m craving the ending to the loneliness that is going through my heart at the moment.  I know I can surround myself with friends, but I know that I would just be putting up a front and the smile.  My smile wouldn’t reach my eyes right now.  I’m tired of waiting for God to bring me that special someone.  I want to be able to live and share my life with them while I am still young enough to live it.  I don’t know…maybe I’ve screwed up all of my chances and there is nothing left.

I’m tired of feeling all this pain in my life.  I don’t want to be numb from all the happiness that I know I could be feeling, but I want to be numb from the pain.  I wish there was an escape for me.  I don’t necessarily need “me” time…but I need to find a way of getting away from all this and finding my way back to the way I was before.

I have a song which explains so much about what I am feeling.  ”Numb” by the Pet Shop Boys.  I find that I am better able to express myself through music.  I wish I could live my life speaking on through music…but life isn’t a musical.  But there are songs which can say so much that I could never say.  They have a way of bringing to light what I am feeling and are better at describing it and putting it into words than I could ever do.

So here is my song for the evening…maybe this will help to shed some light onto what is going on through my brain.  If I could find a way of posting the video on here, I would.  But for now…here are the lyrics.

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There comes a time when the blankness of future is so extreme. It is such a black wall of nothingness. Not even of bad things - it’s not like it’s a cave full of monsters that you’re afraid of entering, it is just nothingness. ‘Néant’ as the French would say: the void, the emptiness. And it is just horrible.
Stephen Fry on depression. (via mindovermatterzine)

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Blogging as Therapy? (Wall Street Journal)


via WSJ:

Many therapists recommend that their patients keep diaries, but blogging might be even better for mental health, a study suggests.

Researchers in Israel recruited 160 teenagers who had scored low on a test of social and emotional well-being, and who didn’t already blog. Participants were asked to blog about their problems for 10 weeks, using a nickname (either with comments by outsiders allowed, or disabled); to blog about anything they wished; or to keep a diary in an unshared computer file. There was also a control group.

Before and after the experiment, the teens took tests measuring their self-esteem and satisfaction with interactions with peers; and, at the end, their writing was analyzed for clues about their mental health.

By the end of the experiment, the teenagers who had blogged about their problems showed more improvement than the other groups—including those who’d kept a private diary. And, among the bloggers the greatest strides were made by those whose blogs were open to commenters. The gains remained at a two-month follow-up.

The blogs were monitored to ensure that no identifying details were revealed, and the few unsupportive comments were deleted. Given the risks of disclosure, the authors recommended that this kind of frank blogging occur only as part of a supervised treatment program…

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At heart, I have always been a coper, I’ve mostly been able to walk around with my wounds safely hidden, and I’ve always stored up my deep depressive episodes for the weeks off when there was time to have an abbreviated version of a complete breakdown. But in the end, I’d be able to get up and on with it, could always do what little must be done to scratch by.

Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation (via ophidiophobic)

Relating to this passage of the book.

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If you know someone who’s depressed, please resolve never to ask them why. Depression isn’t a straightforward response to a bad situation; depression just is, like the weather. Try to understand the blackness, lethargy, hopelessness, and loneliness they’re going through. Be there for them when they come through the other side. It’s hard to be a friend to someone who’s depressed, but it is one of the kindest, noblest and best things you will ever do.

Stephen Fry (via now-in-glorious-technicolor)

And don’t say “don’t be sad” or “stop crying”, either 

(via ceasesilence)

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The 5 Stages of iPhone 4S Grief by Sam Spratt
First-world problems, etc.
my: portfolio website,  tumblr,  facebook artist’s page & twitter. 


The 5 Stages of iPhone 4S Grief by Sam Spratt

First-world problems, etc.

my: portfolio website,  tumblr facebook artist’s page & twitter

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Depression also has been found to correlate with high degrees of empathy, a greater concern for how others think and feel. In one study, severely depressed patients had much higher scores on the standard measures of empathy than did a control group of college students; the more depressed they were, the higher their empathy scores. This was the case even when patients were not currently depressed but had experienced depression in the past

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Depression (Mental disorder posters)